1. I am moved

 

There are a lot more salesmen hanging around our hall recently. They are all wearing in tidy suits and stylish ties. They are all young and nice-looking. They are all holding a little piece of board saying: *** Property, 60% discount. I could not stop sighing whenever I saw them, thinking that they must be suffering a lot from the financial tsunami. They might have a decent job before this. They might have a family that they had to work so hard to make ends meet.

 

I saw some of them when I walked back to hall after dinner today. In the twilight, they looked nervously to every passer-by, showing the little board to everyone that looked senior. There was no confidence and energy on their faces. They might think no one would really notice it, as I did. I started to sympathize them again, until I walked pass the safeguard pavilion.

 

There sat a safeguard in the little room, looking at a notebook in front of him attentatively. He wore this serious expression as if he were sitting for some exam or calculating a budget or something. I guess the notebook was no more than a record of entry register or work shift table. I saw this man some times before. Unlike other safeguards, he was always very strict in controlling students' entry or exit. Then I saw the shiny ring in his middle finger.

 

I suddenly realized that he treated his job very seriously.

Many people might regard safeguards jobs as meaningless and humble. He obviously does not think so.

I suddeny was quite moved and got the feeling that Hong Kong people could always get through hardships no matter what. Because they treat their work seriously. 

 

I suddenly remembered that I was walking on the overpass the other day. An old beggar knelt beside the overpass and kept kowtowing, with a dirty bowl displaying in front of her. There were several coins inside. She was just a normal beggar, but I suddenly remembered what PANG Dun once told us in our Cantonese class, that all the beggars we saw on the street were from Mainland. If you are a Hong Kong citizen, you would go to government for welfare instead of begging. I then recalled the little old woman I saw everyday. She was very short, almost a drawf. She stood at the turning from the railway station to the overpass and collected newspapers from the passersby. Honestly, I didn't like her at the first sight. She's got a quite ugly face and her face was crammed with ferocity and hatred. She was standing with other two women who tried to do the same job as her. She tried to pushed them aside whenever possible. I did not see the other women later on. She was the monopoly for the newspaper collection job right now.

 

I accidentally ran into her one afternoon in the back street of hall. She was pushing a trolley stacked with newspapers. She was crossing the street and looked really hard-working. No matter what she did to others, she was just a little creature struggling her way out in the wild world. Who isn't?

 

I adore hard-working people. I do.

 

As what Zhang Manyu said in "Comrades: Almost a Love Story": This is Hong Kong! If you work hard at it, everything is possible.

I tend to believe that.

 

Hope the safeguard will marry the happy girl soon.

 

2. I am sad

 

My mom always complained to me how irresponsible the "young people" in her office were. She said employers could never trust young and inexperienced people coz they always made a promise so easily but never really lived up to it.

 

And I always wonder why I never ever really finished a complementary class. I was interested in it when I chose it. I thought I could benefit a lot. And I thought I'd love it. But usually after two or three classes, I dropped out.

 

There was this call from HKFUG, asking why our team was not there when we were supposed to deliver a presentation a couple of minutes later. I did not know what to say.

 

I should have known that, when I agreed to participate in the compeition with three other guys, I was making a promise. I  should live up to the promise and committed myself to it. Yet, I contributed little to writing up the paper, I tried to escape the responsibility of presenting our report in front of the judges. I even failed to tell them we quit before the presentation day.

 

I could not imagine how angry the one who called might be. I knew I was behaving ridiculous. And I really felt bad.

It's not solely my responsibility but why didn't I motivate other teammates?

 

When you say "I am gonna handle it", you should mean it and you will really get everything done.

 

I will be writing an appology letter to HKFUG.

I will really think before I make any promise and realize it one by one.

 

3. Vincent Mok & Anti-competition

 

One lesson that left a deep impression on me from Vincent Mok is anti-competition laws.

The government would always try to keep a comparatively keen competition in the market.

For the benefits such as customers would have more choices, prices would be lower, stuff like that.

 

I think, another advantage will be: the big company will be 'happier' if there is competition.

Why?

Because if a big company is stupid enough to drive all other competitors out,it would be the real monopoly in the entire industry. (Provided no one interferes and it is really strong)

It seems that no matter it is performing well or poorly, the profits would be the same as customers never have a choice. (Provided demand remains the same whatsoever)

But due to media scrutiny, it still has to carry out its duties to improve itself. Or others might say it is not doing what it is supposed to do as there's no competition.

The internal staff of the company would then complain why they still need to improve themselves as even when they did not put too much efforts, they could still get the same results.

Everyone in the company will feel tired and unhappy and unsure if their efforts are worthy.

 

That is a psychological setback resulting from absence of anti-competition law.

I came with this idea in today's lunch and a diary of another guy.

Sounds funny to me.

好像真的像媽媽說的那樣很喜歡出風頭呢。

 

媽媽說什麽時候選minor啊，一定要選會計要選會計！！

但是我也想上文科的AMA的ENGL的！！！

KRISTIAN說他15歲去LONDON學跳舞22歲畢業教跳舞25歲轉行做到manager然後28歲過來讀理大MM！

為什麽大家都有那么遠大的理想那么執著的信念那么勤奮的精神！

但是我總是懶懶散散迷迷茫茫不知道我想要什麽！！

 

我說上STATISTICS吧！上CALCULUS吧！上CHINA BUSINESS吧！考IELTS吧！給我時間看閒書吧！

我說問問學長吧！問問老師吧！問問爸爸媽媽吧！！！

 

but, is there a fixed access to achieving wat so-called success？

 

我說為什麽GPA上不去！為什麽我不能出人頭地！為什麽我總是畏首畏尾！

為什麽總是有人滿面春風有人說學MANAGEMENT有什麽用啊有人這么充實啊！

 

總是什麽都想要。什麽都要不到。

 

真的希望有一個人能告訴我應該怎么做。

哎。

下午看新聞的時候完全沒想到爸爸在四川開會，還心安理得地自習到九點多才回來~

媽媽QQ上的一句“就是有影響啊！”突然驚醒。。。

幸虧她也馬上告訴我平安無事。

 

想起來真是後怕。

 

好不容易跟爸爸打通了電話~

說當時好多人嚇的都攤在地上。

說某個地方的某個中學死了50多個中學生。。都是準備高考的。

說好多交警都不懂急救常識，很多人。。差了這5分鐘可能就死掉了。

說部隊已經開進去準備救人了。

說很多人都去獻血。。。他也準備去的~結果找不到地方。。= =

 

之前也聽過很多地震的故事啊文章啊。

都沒有這次這么真實這么近。。。

 

媽媽下午知道之後打電話一直不通。

還打到移動公司去了。

不過那裡的服務生不會直接說出：如果被埋了當然是打不通啦~的話。。。

但是那個時候媽媽應該也是很擔心的吧。恩。

在自然面前，人還是那么渺小。

 

我真的真的很怕。

背了兩個星期的商業環境考成這樣。

沒什麽好說的了。

 

到Y1怎么辦啊。

've been in this dilemma for quite some time now and still cannot figure out a solution.

really hate myself being so nasty when trying to make decisions.

there is always more that i wanna get.

and  hate myself much more that im so self-centred.

WHEN WILL I LEARN CARING FOR OTHERS?

i love cherry, like everyone else does.

it's just so mean and selfish of u to say that.

it's almost like coming right out of ur figures without u even thinkin abt it.

well, it's just wat i am.

 

a selfish bastard.

 

wats the last time when i felt a sorta strong affection for someone?

truth is,

i can't remember.

wat a shame. how sad.

 

nothing's perfect. so it's all abt fate.

i can't see wat the fate is leading me to.

yet i don't wanna make any endeavours any more.

let it be.

so long as the affection hasn't found its way.

 

it is better than not.

人失去什麽最可怕？

 

緊迫感。

清明节回乡下
正在上小学一年级的小表弟有四个愿望。

一个是100分

一个是好事都落到他头上

一个是上清华北大

一个是有个好工作

所以他认认真真地磕了四个头。

don't say those words. especially in stark contrast with wat u've said before.

just think wat a humiliation it will be.

im not happy.not happy.

今天给系花讲那个I HAVE A DREAM的时候。她一副真的被MOTIVATE。真的很感动。真心说出“你肯定是SPEECH CONTEST第一名”的时候，感觉还真的蛮好的。觉得确实是有感染性的说。但是晚上跟LMY同学一组讲完之后，劈头盖脸的意见和建议就让我觉得还是有很长的路要走哇~~~英语牛人真的还是很多很多的啊。专业的人士就是能一针见血的指出你的不足你的缺点。。。什么时候才能变成这些有经验有气质有威严有内涵的学长学姐们呢？？

恩。决定组团竞选CMSA的时候真的没想到会有这么多困难会这么辛苦。也许是刚开始吧。但是这几天还是想了很多。对自己以前的信心决心梦想有了重新的审视。人只有在认真的时候才能看到真实的自己。就像三年前CAROL对我说的：“roy, perhaps sometimes u really need to be SERIOUS."恩。我要认真做人了。

不要骄傲，不要高调。  -- 要改

说话不要带脏字。  --要改

对人要有礼貌。  --要改

要有威严要有气势。  --要改

待人接物要有素养。  --要改

对人友好。  --要改

珍惜你身边的人。  --要改

 

中文水平越来越差了。

 

加油！

从今天开始

我要认真做人

this is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo not i want it to be

 

I HATE THIS

昨天吃饭的时候妈妈问我:

你有没有想过要填什么志愿啊...

想了想说不知道啊

恩，是真的不知道

然后我们就开始讨论我那个可爱的表弟了

然后我就觉得幼儿园老师真是残害儿童啊...

难道没有想过他们的每个细小的动作都可能影响一个人的一生吗

何况都是那些心无城府眼神纯净的孩子们

突然就发现了自己是很想当幼儿园的老师的

呵呵

真的很想

天天看着那些可爱的孩子

用120分的爱心来照料他们

永远不要给他们冷漠以及羞辱

永远不要他们看到不公

我，不，要

孩子只应得到爱心,120分的爱心

当然这种话只能跟自己讲或者当玩笑讲

我们应当好好学习,选择金融管理或者信息工程什么的...

呵呵

但是我还是很想当幼儿园老师哦!

有钱了开一家!

Dream a little sweet dream...